Happy Baby June 25, 2007

This weekend my sister-in-law, fiona and I went to a baby shower for a friend of ours who has a beautiful little 6 week old girl named Kianna. Kianna slept peacefully away for most of her shower (except when they were opening gifts which was very cute because she ‘obviously’ wanted to see what she was getting!). Since the star of the show was sleeping little miss Fiona got a fare amount of attention as she smiled and laughed her way around the room. We heard comment after comment, “you have such a happy baby!”, “I’ve never seen a baby smile so much!”. Valerie and I just laughed….if they only knew! But it made me think….gee, maybe I do have a happy baby. Maybe the tides have changed. I’m so used to her being so unhappy, crying so much….i’ve always got my guard up, always ready for the next tantrum….but maybe that has passed. Maybe I need to open my eyes and see her for who she is today….not who she was yesterday. I have a happy baby. It’s going to take some time…I have to say that I think I am a little gun-shy….maybe even a bit traumatized (too dramatic? no…holding a screaming baby for 3 months is traumatic) Now maybe she’s going to have to wait till I grow out of that stage. I’m sure by then we’ll be in a new one. For now I’ll just enjoy my happy baby and remember when.