Apparently I’m Not SuperWoman January 19, 2008

Just another growing pain here…

Before I had Fi I knew for sure I would be back exercising on a regular basis within months of her birth. I knew for ABSOLUTE sure I’d be ready for a race by the following spring. And man, by the time she was a year old I would be full on racing again, and Team in Training? No problem.

In a couple of weeks the kick-off for Maui (my favorite group, race and well…buffet) will begin. I was in. I was going to do it. Train 3 days a week with the team….well sure I’d miss some, but no problem. Raise 5,400.00? Sure it would be harder this time…but no problem.

But…there is a problem. Reality. Reality is my problem.

Apparently I work full time. Yes, 40 + hours a week.  And when I’m not working not only do I have a house to keep up, groceries to buy and pets to care for…but oh yah, I’m a mom. And crazy as it sounds… I like to spend every single minute I have to spend with my baby. Oh, and did anyone mention to me that my husband travels every month for weeks at a time and that it is really frowned upon in our society to leave your 1 year old at home alone while you go on a 3 hour bike ride or to the gym? huh.

I don’t know what I was thinking. I was being pressured by my own misconceived notions. I keep finding myself in this position…what I thought I could do and what the reality is. Of course, once I admitted to myself that I was crazy for thinking I could pull it off and let myself be o.k. with  not being able to do everything I felt much better.

So no…no team in training for now. I’m not even going to guess as to when I can add that back into my life. I am going to pick a couple of races this summer to train for…sure there won’t be any sea turtles on the swim course or cocunut-macadamia nut- waffles the next morning…but I get something no one else does….Fiona Rose.