we did it. we made it to one. i’ve been thinking about what to write for this for a couple days….all the same things everyone always says; i can’t believe it’s here, time is going by so fast….when you read a lot of mom’s blogs you read those words many times. But it’s true. I can’t believe that it’s here. Time is going by so fast. I’ve said many times that the first few months were so hard but the last few have been so fun.
The most unexpected thing happened to me on Sunday, when everyone started singing happy birthday to fi i almost started to cry. it came from nowhere and i’m not even sure what it consisted of…maybe a little sadness, a little relief, a little pride and a little joy. I remember when Fiona was a little tiny baby – crying non stop- I couldn’t wait until she was a little older, big enough to hold up her head, to crawl, to walk, but that time seemed so far away. Now I look down and see my little girl running across the house chattering away and i realize i don’t even have a baby anymore i have a toddler. where did the baby go? will i miss toddlerhood too?
This year has been such a year of discovery and learning. Greg was marveling the other night at how much she has learned and changed in a year and I was marveling at how much we have learned and changed in a year. People always refer to the journey of motherhood and I’ve never quite known what exactly they meant and now thanks to little miss fi i believe i am finally on the pathway.
I am excited for this new year. I’m sure I’m as blissfully unaware of what 12 to 24 months brings as I was of 0 to 12 – but this time I have the knowledge that I don’t have the knowledge and instead of being afraid of what I don’t know I’m ready to greet it.
Happy Birthday to both of us.
